2010

2010 was all in all a really good year for me. I had my ups and downs but overall it was great. It was my first full year being married to my best friend and true love of my life. It was the year I became a mother to the most amazing little boy in the world. It was the year I took a stand for myself and cut the negative people out of my life, which was harder than I ever believed it could be.

I learned who my true friends are. I learned which were the toxic people in my life and which ones I really needed to give a second chance. I learned that sometimes fights can make friendships stronger.

I went back to therapy. It was another important step and I am glad I did it. I will continue going into the new year, although my therapist said that less often is okay now, and that makes me feel better, knowing that I made progress. I will keep seeing my psychiatrist every few months as well. The medicine I am on has really helped and I know it isn't anything to be ashamed of anymore. The chemicals in my brain just need some help and I am okay with that. I want to be the best mom and wife that I can be and if that means taking a pill everyday to help me, I am okay with that.

I fell even more in love with my best friend. Looking into his eyes right after Collin was placed on my stomach just seconds after being born... it made me fall more in love with him. Seeing him interact and play with our son... seeing him napping with him... seeing the love in his eyes for this little person that is equal parts of us... it was enough to bring me even closer to him than I thought I ever could.

2011 is going to be great. I plan to continue down a road towards happiness, I look forward to date nights with my husband, and I hope that we will be blessed with another pregnancy and healthy baby.

I hope God blesses you all with everything your heart wants and needs this next year! <3