30/17

I would be 3/4 of the way done with my second pregnancy and almost halfway through my 3rd by now. You would think this would get easier, but it doesn't. All I can do is cry because the thing I want so much just isn't happening. It's crazy to think we would have found out what baby #3 is this week... and he or she is gone. I hope they are together, taking care of each other. Having a sibling relationship that I am not sure Collin will ever have.

I just want my babies back :( I would give anything in the world to have them back.